I’m dying alone while alive, but I’ve made my peace. I didn’t ask for what happened, but I’ve matured and accept on faith and intelligence, that I can not solve this problem alone — and the brightest minds have not -thus far – been able to do so either.
With that said, I will sit in my room everyday or do whatever I want, as I have for the last 12 years, and just be grateful for what I have.
I am not useless, and I take every opportunity now to be what I can — kind, compassionate, gratitude filled, and serve others who need whatever I can offer.
Whatever you’re facing, it is temporary. Prepare yourself for the days ahead when you will overcome the obstacles. Having a partner is nice, but it is not essential nor the root of your unhappiness. Fill your hole with someone, and you’ll just find reasons to move on.
To solve your problem, you must let go and take it on faith that you’re going to end up where you need to be, when you need to be there. You’re not in control of everything. Let go, and you will see I am right, and you will find peace and the person you are meant to meet will find you.
It’s that simple. Let go.
Why? We all die at some point in our lives, it is inevitable, so why “fear” it?
That said, you’re young and you’ve plenty of time to re-acclimate yourself to the social circuit towards the goal of finding someone to share your life with.
To this end the best advice that I can give you is that, instead of actively searching for it, be open to Love and just let it happen when it does because it manages to work out best than someone who is actively on the hunt for it.